Wow, this is a lot of writing for me! ^_^
My birthday was on March 11th. It turns out that I caught a lovely stomach virus from one of the patients that I took care of a few days prior to my birthday, so I got sick. >.< I worked six days in a row before my birthday so I could have four days off to enjoy it. Well...let me just say that I spent three days out of the four in bed, sleeping. v.v I was better by my fourth day off, and was able to go out to eat with my mother. That was fun, and something that I have not done in a long time. Other than being sick, I would say that my time off was okay. Josh, my boyfriend, took great care of me while I was sick. That is something that I am definitely not use to...being sick, and having someone wait on me hand and foot. I was very shocked and impressed! =)
As of this week, I started drawing again!!! ^_^ It has been at least 4 years since I have attempted to draw anything. I lost my inspiration to draw during my last relationship and have not been able to find it until now. I finished one drawing this week, but eventually I will have more than that per week. I am hoping at least...we will see?
Josh has not liked being in Tennessee, and most of that would be because he misses his friends in Ohio. From what I gathered, he likes it much better in Ohio. =/ There is just one thing...I know, and I am afraid of this, that I will never be able to leave Tennessee any time soon because of the tension that is still around in my family. It sucks...more for my sister than for me right now, but at the same time I worry as to how things are going to turn out. I am not going to leave Tennessee until I know for sure that things are going to be okay between my family. That is just the way it has to be, and I cannot help it because I do not have much family as it is. I have many fears and worries.... ...one of which being that I could loose the one that I love(Josh) to this, but family does comes first no matter what. The subject of moving has not come up, but I think that it will come up one day. Josh is younger than I, and I love him very much, but I do not think that he would take it very well if I told him that I did not want to move out of Tennessee. At the same time, he should be able respect my decision as to why I would not move. That still does not solve the problem. Our relationship could possibly end. I am probably worrying too much, which is something that I do a lot, but I cannot help but think about it. I am not sure that I could go through something like this again, emotional wise. Many people will probably tell me other wise, but it is different. *sighs*
So much for being happy about finding my inspiration to draw again...
I just worry alot, and most of the time I cannot help it. I always have my guard up, so do not worry about what I say in these posts because most of the time it is my way of venting in order to get the weight off of my shoulders? Make senes? Also, I may not always want to talk about these things to my boyfriend or friends, just because that is the way I am. I do not want to have to talk to someone about my problems, because then, I will feel as if I am complaining about my life to somone else...when they have their own problems to cope with. Yes, sometimes you need that, and it feels good to have someone to talk to; however, I will do that when I feel like I need to do so. I just bottle myself up a lot, and am not able to talk to who it is that I am needing to talk to. Josh is aware of all of this though, but only because he read my myspace blog. That is not a good way to talk about things, but as you have read this far, you see why I did it that way.
Most of my friends, and people that I meet, ask me why I am so quiet at times. Some people are made for talking, others are made for listening. I am a great listener; I was made for it. Listeners like to think things through, give their opinions, maybe even give some great advice at times, or they can just say nothing at all while the person is just finishing up with what they are wanting to say. I am not all that bad for wanting to be a good listener. It is just something that I enjoy, plus I do not always have something interesting to say. Most people could assume that I am stuck-up, but in the end they will see that I talk more once I have warmed up to them.
I have yet to look into computers. Procrastination will get me nowhere; however, I have thought about buying all the necessary equipment to hook up my laptop to the t.v. so I can just use that as my monitor. My laptop is only a year old, and it has several pressure cracks on the screen. Most of this was caused by transporting the laptop to and from the library, when I did not have the internet at home. I am a little upset, but knew that something like this would probably happen in the future. Plus...it is a Dell...enough said there, ay? I would still like to have some sort of back-up plan just in case this laptop does decide to bite the dust. So, there it is...I must go hunt for the computer that is for me!!! O.O I definitely need a gaming computer, because my boyfriend loves his games. I like to play a few of them every once in a while, when I have the time to do so. So, I have some research to do. Any suggestions?!?
I guess that this about sums things up!!! Hope that I did not bore you guys to death! Adios for now!
As of this week, I started drawing again!!! ^_^ It has been at least 4 years since I have attempted to draw anything. I lost my inspiration to draw during my last relationship and have not been able to find it until now. I finished one drawing this week, but eventually I will have more than that per week. I am hoping at least...we will see?
Josh has not liked being in Tennessee, and most of that would be because he misses his friends in Ohio. From what I gathered, he likes it much better in Ohio. =/ There is just one thing...I know, and I am afraid of this, that I will never be able to leave Tennessee any time soon because of the tension that is still around in my family. It sucks...more for my sister than for me right now, but at the same time I worry as to how things are going to turn out. I am not going to leave Tennessee until I know for sure that things are going to be okay between my family. That is just the way it has to be, and I cannot help it because I do not have much family as it is. I have many fears and worries.... ...one of which being that I could loose the one that I love(Josh) to this, but family does comes first no matter what. The subject of moving has not come up, but I think that it will come up one day. Josh is younger than I, and I love him very much, but I do not think that he would take it very well if I told him that I did not want to move out of Tennessee. At the same time, he should be able respect my decision as to why I would not move. That still does not solve the problem. Our relationship could possibly end. I am probably worrying too much, which is something that I do a lot, but I cannot help but think about it. I am not sure that I could go through something like this again, emotional wise. Many people will probably tell me other wise, but it is different. *sighs*
So much for being happy about finding my inspiration to draw again...
I just worry alot, and most of the time I cannot help it. I always have my guard up, so do not worry about what I say in these posts because most of the time it is my way of venting in order to get the weight off of my shoulders? Make senes? Also, I may not always want to talk about these things to my boyfriend or friends, just because that is the way I am. I do not want to have to talk to someone about my problems, because then, I will feel as if I am complaining about my life to somone else...when they have their own problems to cope with. Yes, sometimes you need that, and it feels good to have someone to talk to; however, I will do that when I feel like I need to do so. I just bottle myself up a lot, and am not able to talk to who it is that I am needing to talk to. Josh is aware of all of this though, but only because he read my myspace blog. That is not a good way to talk about things, but as you have read this far, you see why I did it that way.
Most of my friends, and people that I meet, ask me why I am so quiet at times. Some people are made for talking, others are made for listening. I am a great listener; I was made for it. Listeners like to think things through, give their opinions, maybe even give some great advice at times, or they can just say nothing at all while the person is just finishing up with what they are wanting to say. I am not all that bad for wanting to be a good listener. It is just something that I enjoy, plus I do not always have something interesting to say. Most people could assume that I am stuck-up, but in the end they will see that I talk more once I have warmed up to them.
I have yet to look into computers. Procrastination will get me nowhere; however, I have thought about buying all the necessary equipment to hook up my laptop to the t.v. so I can just use that as my monitor. My laptop is only a year old, and it has several pressure cracks on the screen. Most of this was caused by transporting the laptop to and from the library, when I did not have the internet at home. I am a little upset, but knew that something like this would probably happen in the future. Plus...it is a Dell...enough said there, ay? I would still like to have some sort of back-up plan just in case this laptop does decide to bite the dust. So, there it is...I must go hunt for the computer that is for me!!! O.O I definitely need a gaming computer, because my boyfriend loves his games. I like to play a few of them every once in a while, when I have the time to do so. So, I have some research to do. Any suggestions?!?
I guess that this about sums things up!!! Hope that I did not bore you guys to death! Adios for now!
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